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A man does not want to denigrate woman, His beloved, his pashe, His beloved, his passion, his soul-mate, Mother of our Child from west to wild.
The reason pornography is addictive is because it is a tempting, easily available( in the rest of the world) and addictive poison( of the mind). In my case I started on the hunt for porn because I could not find a woman who was true, when I was in need. I was too afraid to go out of home to look for soma one. I found some picture magazines in the closet and felt illicit and anxious and excited. Then faces and smiles and good pictures excited me, stoking my fantasy. I imagined talking to them but they did not speak back, I could only replace their talk( - absence) with penis stimulation. A physiological reaction but not satisfaction, like a drug. I craved more and when the thrill of one set of pictures faded I needed new faces and pictures. Harder and more explicit pictures. When I reached perversion I was looking at videos of women submitting. Although I felt even more in awe of women I was actually denigrating the porn actors, men and women. I was mentally ill and even more lonely. The only faces and bodies I could see naked were in porno. The guilt remained.
Today, the Holy Spirit saved me by guiding my emotions towards people. People who need people are luckier. I no longer need porn.
I was afraid to go out because some people around in school, my class mates, were sociopaths, some of them. Children are very sensitive. The soul of Vegans is to remain that way. We are the children. Of God.
God thank you for inviting me into your presence. In to your Grace. Thank you for Loving me and giving me guilt just enough at the right time that I was saved. Thank you for giving me your Son to be my greatest Friend. Thank you for the gift of the Holy Spirit, my guide and comforter. My God, One in Three, Three is One and all, World with out end, forever and ever. Amen.
The reason pornography is addictive is because it is a tempting, easily available( in the rest of the world) and addictive poison( of the mind). In my case I started on the hunt for porn because I could not find a woman who was true, when I was in need. I was too afraid to go out of home to look for soma one. I found some picture magazines in the closet and felt illicit and anxious and excited. Then faces and smiles and good pictures excited me, stoking my fantasy. I imagined talking to them but they did not speak back, I could only replace their talk( - absence) with penis stimulation. A physiological reaction but not satisfaction, like a drug. I craved more and when the thrill of one set of pictures faded I needed new faces and pictures. Harder and more explicit pictures. When I reached perversion I was looking at videos of women submitting. Although I felt even more in awe of women I was actually denigrating the porn actors, men and women. I was mentally ill and even more lonely. The only faces and bodies I could see naked were in porno. The guilt remained.
Today, the Holy Spirit saved me by guiding my emotions towards people. People who need people are luckier. I no longer need porn.
I was afraid to go out because some people around in school, my class mates, were sociopaths, some of them. Children are very sensitive. The soul of Vegans is to remain that way. We are the children. Of God.
God thank you for inviting me into your presence. In to your Grace. Thank you for Loving me and giving me guilt just enough at the right time that I was saved. Thank you for giving me your Son to be my greatest Friend. Thank you for the gift of the Holy Spirit, my guide and comforter. My God, One in Three, Three is One and all, World with out end, forever and ever. Amen.
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